Lonely (Top)
I sit here alone
I remember a time
when I was never alone
when friends constantly surrounded me
Where have they gone?
Were they ever really there?
Now that I think back
I see what really was -
I was always alone.
Sure, there were always people around
But none of them wanted in
Or maybe I didn’t let them in
I closed myself off
to shelter myself from pain
Pain is all I have now
Nothing’s inside but an empty hole
where love and friendship should’ve been
I thought I had friends
but I guess I didn’t
Friendship requires understanding
is unconditional
But I didn’t know any of them
They sure as Hell didn’t know me
Was it because I wouldn’t let them?
Was I too bipolar -
quiet to crazy
What was I afraid of ...
Well, now I am alone
So what have I accomplished?
a guilty feeling of the past
insincere memories
reminders of my loneliness
What a waste of an existence!
How do I change
what has already been?
I can’t exactly go back
No, no I can’t.
So, I learn to live with my past
accept what I
do have
even if it’s not what I want
And trudge through
the rest of my life
Alone.